Uncertainty

(Our big tree in the backyard)

There is something about uncertainty that both frightens and excites me...

I am not sure of where I will be in the next few months... There are so many different possibilities! I may get laid off, I may get the transfer I have been hoping for, I may get transferred somewhere else, and I may even stay right where I am! In the next few months I could be pregnant, or be totally satisfied with life at that moment in time. August will prove to be an awesome month when many things are set into place for me and my little family. I have found myself looking forward to what is to come... whatever that may be! I know that I am being watched over and it makes me feel safe to know that it is all in His more than capable hands! I can only pray that I am making the right choices and decisions that will lead down His righteous path!

Here are some pictures from my birthday and spring break etc. that I can now add thanks to Mrs.EmmaLouise (: Thanks again!








They took me to my favorite resturaunt (:

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Love, Mrs. Tims

I'm BAAAAAACK!

The past few months have been extremely hard.... to say the least! So... in a nutshell (think of this rambling like the one Owen Wilson does in Marley and Me - LOVE the movie!)


FEBRUARY

• Got a BFP!!! First cycle TTC after our MC in October!


• Started spotting two weeks later.


• Went in for ultrasound... measuring a week behind. No HB.


• Started bleeding heavily the next day.


• Miscarried the 3rd week in February at around 6-7 weeks gest.
  
• Agonized over this... but knew that it is all in HIS plan!


• Swore off anything having to do with TTC.

MARCH

• Started planning my sister's baby shower
  
• Cooked an impromptu dinner for DH's birthday - Chef Boyardee and grilled cheese, LOL.

• Got a HUGE snow... Made a snowman with my baby.


• Started rennovation of our backyard. BEFORE PIC.


• Started panning for a Southern Living party that I was hosting. (Can you tell I was trying to keep busy???)


• Got observed twice in one week at work... I am a teacher.


• The next week I had a Data Notebook to turn in and got my yearly evaluation. (STRESS does not even cover it!)


• Anxiety REALLY starts getting to me! It always does around a month after my MC's... I think it's the hormones.


• Successfully hosted the shower and SL party. Had a GREAT turn out for both (: My sister is having a girl... Ashlyn Vivian and the theme of my SL party was Chicks and Chocolate!
  
  
  

APRIL

• Mine and my sister's Birthday and Easter all on the same day (:


• Played with our dog... WALKER!


• Spring Break! Had a blast with my darling son (: (I can feel the stress melting away!)


• After an endless round of POINTLESS Dr appointments I came to terms with the fact that there is nothing wrong with me and how LUCKY I am to have my son and husband... our lovely home... our loving families.... our jobs!
  

I have realized that I cannot spend every waking hour obsessing over something that I have no control over. If it is meant to be then it will happen. I am taking time to appreciate everything that God has blessed me with and just go with the flow. I can't even begin to think about being pg again... it scares me honestly. So for the time being we are not TTC but living our lives and having fun (:


SIDE NOTE: I gave up on the pictures because it was taking WAY too long! If you know a better way to add them please let me in on your little secret!

Love, Jenna